Hello, I'm Ryan

Ryan Michael Sirois is a writer and art director living in Fort Lauderdale, Florida. He recently completed King of Stars, an inspiring memoir about his journey with addiction, sexuality and growing up. Ryan writes regularly for his blog TwelveOneFive, which centers around themes of recovery, acceptance, identity and that stuff we call ‘being human’.

About the book

An inspiring memoir by Ryan Michael Sirois, King of Stars is the journey of a young boy balancing worlds of light and dark as he discovers himself by losing himself along the way. A modern coming of age story, King of Stars shines light on the uncomfortable. On situations often left hidden in shadow. A raw and honest account of sexual identity, addiction and growing up.

It is a voice for anyone who is searching, hiding, or standing still.


Those invisible monsters that still creep in shadow.
We share the dark, each in search of our own light.

-King of Stars

TwelveOneFive Blog

Updated frequently as possible, TwelveOneFive is a collection of ongoing writing.

October 13, 2016

Against my cheek, a warm glow of light beams from the sun. 92,955,807 miles away. A boy, a man, tucked under his covers in bed. Tucked under a fluffy white down comforter listening to the playlist I made for my friend who fell out of a relationship. So far: Alanis Morissette, “That I Would Be…

Finding Control
September 22, 2016

The screen is blank. A bottle of Pellegrino on the small bronze table ahead. My feet are propped on a blue and white patterned pouf ottoman. I was in the kitchen a few minutes ago before sitting down. Had every intention to write about control, a topic in my AA meeting this morning. But a…